“我不装筛子。”
这是我为什么那么喜欢王一方。现在她不在，我身边少了那么剔透的一块石头。我们在一起的时候说话都很损，关乎缺点，从来没有过避讳。摩擦不少，却互相珍惜。有时候她说她受不了我，太ge，我回敬说我也受不了她。我就告诉她我们要“保持距离”，然后又用很长很长的时间琢磨她到底为什么会和sxx成为很好的朋友，才算小心的保存好我们的友谊。
我明白回报很重要，所以我可以理解为什么大家都那么小心的选择自己的专业。不过像王一方这样有十足资本的人，会毫不犹豫的选择自己最大兴趣作为专业。学校给她“调剂”到分数线高一点的专业，因为她的分实在太高了，当然，她自己又给调回来了。最大化自己的优势，又享受她这个特殊行当带给她这群特殊怪物的乐趣，我现正在替她开心。这样豁达，又这样专注，她有什么理由不在以后成为领头的人呢。
张驿弈是另外一个我身边不装筛子的。尽管有时候有些半开玩笑地“装”，被我嚷嚷“没事闲得装什么装！”以后还是会很快回到正常状态。当然了，那些天生或者后天，总之虚伪得时间太长以至于忘记自己想说什么想做什么的那些人，也就不值得这样嚷嚷了。你冲他们开火，他们反倒会觉得你自视超凡，想你在这个龌龊的环境就不要考虑什么淤泥什么不染，仿佛只有他们会背周敦颐的几句拽词。
有点可惜，这两个人没有凑到一块去，反倒分别是我最好的朋友。其实wyf没有那么“不正常”，zyy也不是什么play boy。其实wyf是很喜欢《傲慢与偏见》的，看了很多遍。大概是因为我，这个偏见变得更加难以化解。至于zyy，我只能说他不够了解wyf。其实既然他说过在“他的方面”我有成为他女朋友的可能性，wyf同志则有更大的可能性..只是不了解而已。
Sep 30, 2007
Sep 27, 2007
Sep 22, 2007
no title..
仍然觉得自己很蠢⋯⋯我决定得知某人恢复正常以后就把这件事情忘掉。尽管很难吧。
看似我的大学的主题就这样慢慢冷却下来？鼓，数学或科学。这样看来我跑到工科学校这件事情也多少有点愚蠢。今年中科大多少分来着？⋯⋯
足球比赛还有一个多小时开始，不过我现在就要出去了。喜欢pep band.
看似我的大学的主题就这样慢慢冷却下来？鼓，数学或科学。这样看来我跑到工科学校这件事情也多少有点愚蠢。今年中科大多少分来着？⋯⋯
足球比赛还有一个多小时开始，不过我现在就要出去了。喜欢pep band.
Sep 21, 2007
next week is going to be exciting..
after the observation thru this week.... i finally found severy spots for my next week trial.. ha.. cool places to hide in.. besides considering my own stuff, i'll see if people can find me..
however, i may also spend long time in dorm. since i'm planning to move my furniture, and give myself a study place by the wall (like my high school's classroom..), i'll check out if i can make my dorm more effective..
this weekend isn't going to be pleasant.... to much homework. so it is with next week... though mid term exams are all over...
应该跟wx同学说点什么？真的觉得很尴尬，其实不应该这样的。曾经因为同样的原因失去过几个朋友，还有非常珍惜的伙伴。每次都觉得自己很蠢很幼稚，以为所有人都像我一样把友谊阿爱好阿看的那么重。重要的是每次都觉得自己不长记性……还有的时候是不希望别人失望，虽然我知道这可能会带来更大的失望..
怎么形容呢，反正我是某种很难理解和了解的人，连我自己都不太理解自己。自相矛盾和有人说得“外表和内心分离”。所以如果仅仅是几天的了解就认定喜欢这个人，说不定更了解以后会失望很多。
however, i may also spend long time in dorm. since i'm planning to move my furniture, and give myself a study place by the wall (like my high school's classroom..), i'll check out if i can make my dorm more effective..
this weekend isn't going to be pleasant.... to much homework. so it is with next week... though mid term exams are all over...
应该跟wx同学说点什么？真的觉得很尴尬，其实不应该这样的。曾经因为同样的原因失去过几个朋友，还有非常珍惜的伙伴。每次都觉得自己很蠢很幼稚，以为所有人都像我一样把友谊阿爱好阿看的那么重。重要的是每次都觉得自己不长记性……还有的时候是不希望别人失望，虽然我知道这可能会带来更大的失望..
怎么形容呢，反正我是某种很难理解和了解的人，连我自己都不太理解自己。自相矛盾和有人说得“外表和内心分离”。所以如果仅仅是几天的了解就认定喜欢这个人，说不定更了解以后会失望很多。
Sep 18, 2007
cryptograms
i liked it several years ago. now i don't have the excitement to solve them.. but i thought of something that can hardly be solved by others.
TCV
if i tell what it actually is, some people will get annoyed, some dissapointed and some may be comforted. dunno. im also twisted in such annoying situation.
i'll be disappeared next week, or in a couple of weeks.. people will see me in class or musical activities, but i dont really want to show up for other stuff... just to think about what i want to be like in the near future..
TCV
if i tell what it actually is, some people will get annoyed, some dissapointed and some may be comforted. dunno. im also twisted in such annoying situation.
i'll be disappeared next week, or in a couple of weeks.. people will see me in class or musical activities, but i dont really want to show up for other stuff... just to think about what i want to be like in the near future..
Sep 15, 2007
Sep 9, 2007
almost cried @ alden..
music.. i thought of my assignments, and then music.. sometimes crazy idea come to me that i wanna spend all my time on music. seems nothing else interests me that much except for several subjects and music....
saw and heard them playing and singing music.
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saw and heard them playing and singing music.
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Sep 8, 2007
untitled.. (this is my favourite title)
found sth. today.. that i don't know how to play violin in an orchestra.. that's the result of playing that many years alone. It has been 13 years since I first played the violin. Yet it's my third year playing with others. So even though I really love playing in dual, quartet and orchestra, I still feel like greenhand or something... last week when i played Academic Festival, i spent most my time reading music... which made me feel so awkward.
the good thing abt today is, I finally get the full version of that cadanza in Sun Shining in TashiKurGan. It was awesome. Before today i always came to a halt at the middle of the cadanza, but now I can go through! I still have 9 months to complete this masterpiece. Then I can bring my favourite piece of music to the annual performance.. SOUNDS GREAT. though i do prefer drums.. but if i suggest that i play drums instead of the violin, my teacher's going to kill me.. she'll say, "how come u get rid of violin for drums in a couple of weeks!" HA!
my current violin teacher is an excellent viola player. and she's a great music teacher. She's young and passionate, she's exact, and she's soooooo nice. also, i love playing the violin with her viola. in our dual quartet, my last violin teacher plays the first violin, and my current violin teacher plays the viola. i play the second violin, and it's easy and interesting. when the first violins are in a "hurry" playing the bunch of notes, we could just sit back and play several short chords. However, those chords are fantastic and without them the whole piece of music sounds lack of rhythm..
my violin teacher suggests me to play the viola for a period of time, that sounds nice to me. cuz i'd love to change, and i like the deeper voice of viola. meanwhile, if I learn to play the viola, I can play in a jazz band as well. so when i get a job and get more money, i'll buy myself a viola and start playing it.:-D
well.. if i really have my own money, there are a lot of music stuff to buy.. a performancing violin, a viola, a drum set, a guitar.. by the last two ones i mean electrical.. ha.. even more expensive.
looking forward to finishing practising the SUNSHINE.. the challenging solo..
the good thing abt today is, I finally get the full version of that cadanza in Sun Shining in TashiKurGan. It was awesome. Before today i always came to a halt at the middle of the cadanza, but now I can go through! I still have 9 months to complete this masterpiece. Then I can bring my favourite piece of music to the annual performance.. SOUNDS GREAT. though i do prefer drums.. but if i suggest that i play drums instead of the violin, my teacher's going to kill me.. she'll say, "how come u get rid of violin for drums in a couple of weeks!" HA!
my current violin teacher is an excellent viola player. and she's a great music teacher. She's young and passionate, she's exact, and she's soooooo nice. also, i love playing the violin with her viola. in our dual quartet, my last violin teacher plays the first violin, and my current violin teacher plays the viola. i play the second violin, and it's easy and interesting. when the first violins are in a "hurry" playing the bunch of notes, we could just sit back and play several short chords. However, those chords are fantastic and without them the whole piece of music sounds lack of rhythm..
my violin teacher suggests me to play the viola for a period of time, that sounds nice to me. cuz i'd love to change, and i like the deeper voice of viola. meanwhile, if I learn to play the viola, I can play in a jazz band as well. so when i get a job and get more money, i'll buy myself a viola and start playing it.:-D
well.. if i really have my own money, there are a lot of music stuff to buy.. a performancing violin, a viola, a drum set, a guitar.. by the last two ones i mean electrical.. ha.. even more expensive.
looking forward to finishing practising the SUNSHINE.. the challenging solo..
Sep 6, 2007
courses
im not feeling happy abt my PH1111 assignment score.. cuz it's below average... only because i didn't box my answers and i got 15% off (NOT price..)...
anyway, i just "designed" my college study.. being a math major has been more and more possible to me. i'll concentrate on "Algebraic and Discrete Maths" and "Computational and Applied Analysis", which are more theoretical than practical.. sounds nice to me.
i still feel a bit lost about deciding not to major in biology. i mean in college. last week i saw a girl's book The Cell, and opened it and read it, and everything seemed soooo familiar. For the last two years I was so sure i would major in biology, that i cut half of my study time in other subjects to study college level biology. After that I decided not to study biology in college. cuz if I major in this one, I'll be too confident to work hard, whereas I really shouldn't be that confident. I'm still young, and I can afford challenging choice. After 4 years study biology, plus 2 years in high school, I'm not sure if I can still afford that change at that time.
Next term I'm going to take MA 2071, Matrices and Linear Algebra.. Looking forward to it. YEAH. I'll finish that before MA 1033 and 1034 come, since one of the math majors who has taken those courses said that they were the most difficult courses she's ever taken @ wpi..
anyway, i just "designed" my college study.. being a math major has been more and more possible to me. i'll concentrate on "Algebraic and Discrete Maths" and "Computational and Applied Analysis", which are more theoretical than practical.. sounds nice to me.
i still feel a bit lost about deciding not to major in biology. i mean in college. last week i saw a girl's book The Cell, and opened it and read it, and everything seemed soooo familiar. For the last two years I was so sure i would major in biology, that i cut half of my study time in other subjects to study college level biology. After that I decided not to study biology in college. cuz if I major in this one, I'll be too confident to work hard, whereas I really shouldn't be that confident. I'm still young, and I can afford challenging choice. After 4 years study biology, plus 2 years in high school, I'm not sure if I can still afford that change at that time.
Next term I'm going to take MA 2071, Matrices and Linear Algebra.. Looking forward to it. YEAH. I'll finish that before MA 1033 and 1034 come, since one of the math majors who has taken those courses said that they were the most difficult courses she's ever taken @ wpi..
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